I’ve been getting more commissions lately. Surprisingly it’s been a good few weeks. This summer was a bad low period for me. But I am hoping this momentum keeps going. I’m hoping that if I get some more commissions soon that I will be able to afford a Switch 2. I want to play games like Pokopia and Splatoon Raiders so badly…. Maybe even Ocarina Of Time. I use to have a friend who constantly recommended that game. Hopefully one will be in my grasp soon. I have so much FOMO right now. Not just about the Switch 2; but for a lot of things.
Fear Of Wasting Time
I think my biggest struggle with my current project is settling on what to do. I know WHAT I want to do. But I keep struggling with the idea of “is this worth it though”. I keep getting hit with thoughts like “what if nobody engages with it”. A don’t want to create my projects purely for money, or attention. I want to create them for me. But it’s hard not feeling stressed out when I have to make an income for my work. A lot of times on social media when you put a crap-ton of effort into something, it never seems to payoff. However, when you make a silly little no-effort piece of art, somehow that tends to be the one that resonates with people.
My last animation, is one I made for my comic. A tie-in. I felt proud of it, and just wanted people to see it. But it was only met with a couple of hundred views, and 75 likes. I’m appreciative of everyone who supports me through and through; and I know likes on social media aren’t everything. But sometimes it does sting when barely anybody has seen a piece of work that you poured your blood, sweat and tears, into for months.
I say all of this, but that is not going to stop me from working on my next project. I will get it done, even if only one person views it. It is something I need to get off of my chest.
Spider-Man Is Fun
Watched Spider-Man Brand New Day recently. Quite a good film! Just may be Tom Holland’s best Spider-Man film. Coming from someone who didn’t enjoy No Way Home, it’s nice to scale back a bit. I do have to say; It is getting a little annoying watching people downplay how amazing the original Raimi trilogy was. That train sequences is still a better scene than a lot of films today. Anyway; ppl should stop being mean towards Sam Raimi. He made an amazing trailer; y’all are just mean.